LESBIAN, i'm sorry i cant do anything
sorry for being so useless
just see you hanging there, at the cliff

BUT
i'll lend you my shoulder when you need to
i'll give you my ears to listen to you
i'll hold your hand to pull you through
i'll kick your butt and make sure you go through it!
i know its hard
i know the feeling when the whole world stand opp of you
when nth goes in your way
you feel like giving up,
losing like a loser
but pls promise me you will make it through
i'll be just here for you

NO MATTER WHAT
PLS DONT GIVE UP!
STAY STRONG!
ILOVEYOU =)

ELAINE TAN IS URGENTLY LOOKING FOR JOB!

DCS was cancel today!
so i reach sch about 09:30 just to let ameerah copy my CTA tutorial 3
but somehow she didnt manage to! haha

after lesson went to find bastard office
waited an hour plus for him to finish up his thing
train to rivervale cc to submit my bursary thingy
double mac spicy *2 thumbs up* =)
FAT DAY FAT DAY! =(

bastard send me home and he went for mahjong session
wish i can go with him
but tml i'm having 2 prac test
so have to be home early to study

meeting eric and co. tml to study till 21:00 if i dont feel tired

bastard working till 21:00 from tue to thur! bored
no time to meet =(
i think i will miss him abit abit abit ONLY =) hee hee
after MST can meet everyday le! hee hee
going malaysia during my holiday with daddy mummy and bastard =)
lalala~ time to top up my things! =)

Suki Sushi for lunch today
but it dont taste that delicious as last time!
afterthat, train to find bastard!
went to his house study, slack!
went for a light dinner
home sweet home!

girl, i know at time it will be hard for you
but pls dont give up!
i'll always be here for you! =)

lalala~ happy!
tml my lunch is suki sushi with daddy and mummy
then train to find bastard! =)
imisshim like he do! =)

STRESS! MST SCHEDULE OUT!
sian! because of bastard, i think my timing is cock!
it either ends at 10:00 or 12:00
and that timing is like he just reach office only! =(
nvm, can go find him for lunch and go bac home and study!

off to my bed to play my itouch now!
GOOD NIGHT & SWEET DREAMS! =)

went out with my darling!
pool at Hplaza >> slack >> home sweet home!

nua nua nua~ nua the whole day!
BORED BORING~
what shld i do now?
so lazy to do my tutorials and stuff! =(

really have to buck up for my studies!
MST COMING!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILIAN! =)

didnt manage to wake up on time to meet eric and co.
reach sch about 13:00+
studied and cock.ed till 17:00
bastard came to fetch me! home sweet home
bastard one week off is over and he needs to be bac to work tml! =(
also not bad la, at least i can stay home and study for my MST! =) hee hee

looking forward to malaysia trip with wendy on august
maybe going Penang >> Genting >> KL

i wonder, will daddy say yes to bastard?.

tml going home to see daddy! IMISSHIM ILOVEHIM INEEDHIM!

have i found my Mr Right?
AGAIN and AGAIN i tot i found mine!
but it ends up to be others!
i dont know how TANCHEWMING manage to let me somehow believe in forever?.
that idiot and bastard pattern of his,
just never fail to make me smile like an idiot!
hes the one, that i dont feel stress with
and hes the one, that prove me simple love with TRUST! =)
i dont need any explaination to what you do
cause i know, you will never bastard me =)

didnt manage to wake up on time for my lesson,
so decided to skip sch for the first time in yr 2!
went to Hplaza pool and met this stupid lady! ..dots..

train to novena find bastard
went for my dental appointment
and i still got 3 to 4 more months to take my braces off
due to this this this that that that!

went to ps, wanted to watch robin hood
but the timing too cock, so watch Sherk Forever After instead!
FUNNY! =) =)

my walking journey today
PS >> Orchard >> PS >> Esplanade
sit down, chat chat for 2 hours plus
circle line bac home! =)

Breathless is the evidence that i've fallen for you,
Heartbeat is the evidence that i love you!

today went home after lesson
change, eat maggi mee, rush down to khatid mrt meet up with wendy!
and she pei & waited for me!thanks wendy! iloveyou =)
ate prawn noodle at ssdc then go for my circuit revision at 15:20
instructor ask me to book for a 17:55 prac 4 slot!
but i was really too tired! so i rather go another time!
he say i was ok, except that my leg got some problem

bus home, meet mummy, went to eat KFC!
WHAT A FAT DAY!

home sweet home! tiring day!

today EID prac is fun!
manage to program the circuit lecturer wanted.

after lesson went to find that bastard!
went to GF again! =)
philip look fatter!
played for hours like yesterday

bastard send me home! =)

woke up late today!
but manage to reach sch in time!

after lesson meet up with bastard!
went to gf! =) haha!
happy~ its like finally i went there
philip look fatter! haha

pei bastard mac at Rplaza
home sweet home!

went to compasspoint with mummy and bee bee
brought my itouch 32gb lalala~ =) damn happy
but my pocket one big big hole!

train to meet bf,
went to bugis, brought 2 pants
train back Rmall, daiso
brought the itouch screen protector
had my double mac spicy=) lalala~

bf, thanks! its always best to meet you! ILOVEYOU!
and stupid bf ask me to stop smiling to myself!
although i look like an idiot!
but i seriously cant stop smiling! lalala~
because of a bastard like you !

Girls, this is for you ! =)

Artist: SHE
Song: 爱就对了

总是要流一些滚烫热泪

才能换来对于爱的体会

你看 世界没有毁灭 心也没有碎

其他的就交给时间解决


你当然可以重新再爱

受过伤的更懂怎样爱与被爱

所以 别再沉溺有他的回忆 有空再回忆

离开你的只有他 但是爱还在


听我说 爱是对的 错的是 我们还没学会爱

就急着爱人 而爱错人

可是 爱就对了 遇到下一个 爱上就爱了

痛苦或快乐 都是我的


我当然经历过你现在的感受

我想那是人必经的折磨 Yeah~

也许每个人都该是某个人 成长的助手

受一点苦痛 帮助她成熟


听我说 爱是对的 错的是 我们还没学会爱

就急着爱人 而爱错人

可是 爱就对了 遇到下一个 爱上就爱了

痛苦或快乐 都是我的


别探听他的线索 别等待他会回头

爱~ 不喜欢看人软弱

别继续把心封锁 别躲在伤心里头

爱~ 万一来了别错过


爱是对的 错的是 我们还没学会爱

就急着爱人 而爱错人

可是 爱就对了 遇到下一个 爱上就爱了

痛苦或快乐 都是我的


听我说 爱是对的 错的是 别人自以为懂爱

才会又爱人 又伤害人

可是 爱就对了 爱了就值得

爱这门功课 艰深但快乐 爱就对了


听我说 爱是对的 错的是 别人自以为懂爱

才会又爱人 又伤害人

可是 爱就对了 爱了就值得

爱这门功课 艰深但快乐 爱就对了

爱来了别错过

yesterday went to my mama house,
notice how fast time can pass!
when i'm growing,
all my loves one is getting older!
and i have to accept the facts that one day, they'll leave me!

daddy fetch me to ssdc for my TTT,
pass, book RTT on 21 june 20:00

went to hougang, lalala~
and one auntie tot i only 13 or 14 yr old! WTF IS THIS ???
hello auntie! i'm turning 19!
so there were 2 bastard who laugh at my hair again!
is it that worst?

cab to serangoon to find that bastard!
drink drank drunk!~ abit tipsy,
he send me home! =)

going to buy my itouch soon soon soon!=) haha

going to meet bf soon~ lalala! i miss her =)

Love Story by Rain


Without you by 2PM


bored boring! book my 2 TTT slot!
make sure i dont fail!
must faster end this nightmare!
haha! so nua to go for prac!~

Elaine Tan is still thinking of putting a tattoo behind the neck

wendy: stay strong girl! =)

if my daddy is free today! i wanna go buy itouch! =)
lalalalala~~~

Elaine Tan feels much better after a long slp!
she decided to let you go
hope you will be happy
she will also move on happily! =)
she will go bac to the point when you havent reappear
and start everything again!
just want to thank you for everything you have done,
and everything you have not!

going for my TTT later if i'm not lazy

woke up late! i tot i snooze my alarm,
but actually i stop it
so didnt manage to wake that johnny up on time!
heng i'm not late
cause we are having maths quiz today!
got FULL MARKS! =) HAPPY!

i'll prove you WRONG!
i'll get into a local uni!
BASTARD!

Dont expect much and nth can disappoint you!

as expected, i failed my RTT
dont feel like taking bike anymore!
went to ssdc just now, and memories killing me!
everywhere i go its killing me!

tried to eat today!
but the food just makes me disguist
that vomit feeling! it SARKS!
end up eating nothing!
am i becoming a pro-ana?
if you dont know what is it
click the link : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pro-ana
i think sonner or later, i'll end up in the hospital with needles and pipes all over my body!

How can you forget someone who have so much for you to remember.


going to spend my 3 hours break in the library now!

i'm sorry girl, but i regretted calling you!
at least, i wont be so scare now!
you increased my sense of insecure!
AND IT SHIT!
no mood to study!.

boring! because of bastard like you
i am still online now!. dots. i think the problem lies on me!
some kinda went siao le! but wasnt a bad one actually! =) hee hee

didnt manage to finish the chap 2 self study de!
so sian la! whole chunck of words!
i think there is some problem with the lecturer also!
saying about lecturer! THE ACS LEC IS PISSING ME OFF!
ask her this she ans me that, ask her that she ans me this!
how to study like that?. with or without her seems no difference to my ACS grade!

ok! i take back my word!
so hard to keep myself away from FB and Blog!
bac from the emo mood! kinda cool myself down already!
but my SIM card is still not inserted in my phone!

working double hard for my yr2! hope to have a GPA >2.5
tutorials tutorials, lecture lecture! bored but sometimes fun cause of some idiot!

ELAINE TAN IS REALLY STUDYING NOW!
why when everyone heard that,
they are like going 'WOW, elaine studying lei!' , 'WOW, the sky will drop money liao'
..dots.. is it really so hard to believe that i'm actually studying?
what is my motivation?
and where does my determination comes from?
idk?. just kinda wanna put everything in my studies!
better than wasting time doing nothing!

yesterday went to serangoon pub,
that pub i went before! i remember daniel was the one who brough us there
tried the butter scot(idk how to spell). kinda sweet! nice =)
and another funny one which i have to drink it and suck the slice of orange!
dont worry, i was not drunk! =)
reach home around 1a.m
went to slp immediately and i manage to wake up on time for my lesson!*clap clap*

TAN LI JIE WILL BE GOING MIA FOR A WEEK!
JUST DONT FEEL LIKE BLOGGING/FB-ing/MSN
SHE NEEDS A SMALL REST BEFORE SHE CAN MOVE ON
SHE NEEDS TO DO THIS IN ORDER TO FORGET YOU!
SHE REALLY NEED TO DO SO!
BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER BE BACK!

had my mac breakfast early in the morning, 4a.m
filled my stomach and i went to slp!
its been ages since i ate mac bf!

headache worsten, have the feel of vomiting recently,
damn xin ku, shld visit the poly clinic this wed.
thur need to go TTSH.
and if i never remember wrongly,
my RTT is coming thur!
i know nth about it! sure fail de
somehow, feel like giving up le!
dont wanna take anymore
because i just dont feel like going alone !
..dots. whatever!

if i never wanted anything,
i wont have lost everything!

I MUST FINSIH MY TUTORIALS BY TODAY!
NO TEMP NO TEMP
NO POOL NO POOL!

STARTING TO MISS MY OLD HAIR STYLE!

dont know why? just got addicted to the song!
on my mp3 repeat mode!
today just went to toa payoh to have my hair cut&dye
..dots.. abit REGRETTED! damn funny!
i bet i will be laughed at for this kinda hairstyle!

have to finish my tutorials by tonight!
so tml i'll be free to go bac to visit my mummy&daddy!

malaysia coming up. lalala~
going to genting next month, during my holidays
but then, all my aunty and popo will be at the casino
so what am i going to do being the only teenager there? =(

maybe going to malacca this month if my daddy say 'yes, i sponsor you go'
haha! that will be like in my dream only!

ps:imissyou!

i over estimated myself
i tot i could, but i couldnt
i tot i can, but i cant
i tot its wrong, but its right
i tot its just some childish anger again
but it turn out to be serious!

feel bored, I WANNA PLAY POOL NOW!
wanna go drink drank drunk
wanna go sing sang sung

STUPID BASTARD!
I DONT LIKE HIM!
DONT LOVE HIM!
AND I WILL NEVER BE WITH HIM!
IDIOT! WHY DONT YOU UNDERSTAND!

ITS JUST SO HARD TO GET YOU OUT OF MY MIND!

tue had our EID prac!
and seriously, ITS DAMN DAMN DAMN FUN! =)

wed went to suntec after lesson for japanese buffet! =)
overall: okok la

nth much to blog! in that kinda shit mood!

MISS ELAINE TAN IS IN A SHIT MOOD NOW!
i wanna stay away from all those things!
i just want to concentrate on my studies!

shawn yeo,
if you wanna think it this way,
then go ahead, i'm not stopping you
nor will i change your thinking
i dont wanna do any explaination
cause if you understand me, you will know me
but if you dont, then you shld know what to do!

judge me if you want! i just wanna stay out of all those things!
i dont want history to repeat!
i dont want to be in a tornado and tooks yrs to get out of that
thats enough! ONCE IS ENOUGH!

time pass real fast in poly,
the third week just pass!
and for this 3 weeks,
i've never skip any lesson and late for just once only!
hee hee*two thumbs* up! =)

nth interesting about my life!
just studies and studies,
except for today
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMEERAH! =)
i hope you find a boyfriend soon to control your crazyness =)
and just FYI, ameerah loves to send me nonsense msg,
saying 'she love me', 'nobody can replace me in her heart'
i think she is ALWAYS damn bored at home! haha

went to bugis fishing yesterday!.
lose away all the coins,
like that also good la,
can concentrate on studies!

nth to do today! felt so so so so shag~
just nua at home the whole day bah
WHY DO I HAVE TO WAKE UP SO EARLY!
0.o because my phone drop from my top double decker bed to the floor
so my feeling was, shit! what a suay day!

what shld i do today?
got the mood to study but no nice place for me to study!

FEEL LIKE PRIVATING MY BLOG!
LIKE THAT NO ONE CAN SEE!
SO I CAN WRITE DOWN ALL MY FEELINGS!
haix haix haix~.........